Its my 33rd birthday today and my mum is not around to celebrate it with me. I lost my mum 7 weeks ago, she died of cancer. Not a long battle, but long enough when you have to watch someone suffer. We did not celebrate my birthday last year or the year before that, infact i cannot remember the last time i did but i would always be sure that she would call to wish me a Happy Birthday. Today it is really hard, my Dad is here but it is not the same. Friends & Family have been great but its the knowing that on my special day I wont see or hear from my mum. She was a good mum and friend but on days like today it hurts.